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Friday, July 31, 2009
pretencious ppl...



hmm..
this whole week been PMS-ing..
tsktsk..
moodswinging all the way..
worst PMS ever!!

but anyway watever la..
shall try to remain happy..
but in any case, i have sth which i just have to say..
so here goes..

u ppl are a bunch of self-centered, shallow, pretentious ppl
who only talk but dont deliver productive work..
u ppl are forever after petty gains and are wat i wud call
CHEAPSKATE..

which is typical btw..
enough said cos i dont wanna insult them further..

anyway y waste my time on them??
yeah there were pretty gd times spent,
but hey, gd times dont stay..
so back away!!

and btw dont have to pretend to be concern..
cut the pretence..
i dont need it..
keep it for yourselves..
im happy the way i am..

12:56 AM
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
love will overpower hatred..



sometimes it takes a lot of reflecting to noe wats happening arnd u..

wooh haven been blogging willingly nowadays..
had lots of things on mind..
to be honest im kinda sick of blogging..
BUT
i shall not let my blog perish!!
im gonna keep it alive!!
man u were darn funny yst..
tinking of names of ur future child..
wahahaha..
but anyway the point was tt u made me happy..
hope i'll be able to meet ur mum soon..
*winks*

lastly thx lots and lots to mira..
i love it..
its very sexy!!
wahahaha
:)

6:28 PM
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
UNGRATEFUL CREATURES


am FARKING FRUSTRATED with u ppl!!
kalau nk pinjam duit, tahu nak cari aku!!!
tanye soalan sikit, semua tak tahu!!
ape yang korang tahu???

stupid brothers..
nvr there for me wen i need help but always
there to ask me for money wen u guys are broke!!
GO DIE LA U ALL..
%#^#$*@#^^

7:45 PM
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Monday, July 20, 2009
IM GOING INSANE


im really gg crazy..
each time i close my eyes,
i hear ur voice whispering into my ears..
its really freaky..
i wanna avoid u but i cant..
i dont want to drive u to suicide,
especially with the unstable emotional state ur in..

im really exhausted..
totally drained of all my energy..
and now ur telling me uve gt some kinda brain tumuor,
the reason for ur unpredictable, unstable state of mind..

i dunno if im supposed to believe u..
im really really lost..
i really cant stand ur overly possessive & overly emotional nature..
it freaks me out..
causing the trauma im facing now..

my heart feels heavy..
i dunno wat i sud do..
i jus dont want to do nothing, knowing tt u might jus
pull the trigger if i were to hurt u..

im really sorry..
its my fault..
im being selfish..but yeah..

i feel so guilty..
im really sorry wira..
dreadfully sorry..
:'(

7:45 PM
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Friday, July 17, 2009
i need some answers!!


im lost, im happy, im freaked out!!
im feeling so many emotions building up in me!!
wat do i do??
why am i like this??
didnt i always say im strong??
den why am i reacting this way??

why must i get freaked out each time im dealt
with matters of the heart??
why cant i jus be calm??
why why why??

I NEED SOME ANSWERS!!!

i really need to scream!!
ARGH!!!

im touched but im freaked out.. :'(

9:38 AM
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
pain game..


all these are starting to seem like a game..
wat should i do??
im really clueless..
i dont wanna feel any pain..
sigh..

8:22 PM
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Wednesday, July 15, 2009
LEGAL AGE!!


hey hey hey..
happy 18th birthday to me!!
hahaha
its been a wonderful day..

wud like to thank everyone who wished me..
love every single one of u..
hehehe

and special thx to PEIYI FARHANA BEN BINGSHENG &
SATHISH & HIS CLASSMATES!!
embarrassed me to hell..
hahaha..

let me try naming everyone here..
all my classmates amirah nisa syamil mamat alfiz mus hafidz zulfadhli ubaidullah zara iffa nas haziqah julmawan adeline wenhao jolene sharil IsHairunizam Jess rusydi weishan JolynSng kelvinOng zainudin faidi
thanks to all u lovely ppl :)

and thx to you for making me feel special..
even b4 i started my day..
thank you..

okie pretty cool day tho it does feel like any other days..
alright..
tts it..

am i ready or am i not??am i in love or am i not??i really dunno..

7:22 PM
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Monday, July 13, 2009
missing u for jus a sec..


i really really feel weird all over..
no idea why..
like there's sth in my body wriggling..
worms??
tsktsk..

anyway luzzy jus wished me an advanced bday..
wow..i didnt even tot he wud bother..
im really elated tt he wished me (tho its advanced..well better than nvr)
hahaha.. :)

thanks dude..u made me smile and miss u for a sec..
only for a second..LOL!!
cos den i remembered sth about.....
shall not elaborate on tt..
:)
i really appreciate u wishing me tho..really :)

hmm..lately been playing with my niece alot..
she's getting from cute to CUTER!!
hehehe
alright tts all..




*should i or should i not??*


7:58 PM
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Thursday, July 9, 2009
my note to a fren...


i tink its about time i wrote sth to reply to ur posts..
we determine our own fate..
wherever we are rite now &
watever situations we face rite now is the result of
nobody but ourselves..

we tried..we really did..
but there was just nothing..
we can no longer see eye to eye..
perhaps cos we're different..

have u ever asked urself why things turned out this way??
did u for one sec thought tt ive nvr asked myself who
or even where the problem lies??
u are not the only one with problems..
u are not the only one feeling miserable..

i tried..
but i cant..
i forgive but i cant forget..
people change..
u did and so did i..

we are all doing our part..
i dont talk cos i don have a reason to..
i dont smile cos i jus cant get tt smile out wen im with u,
no matter how hard i tried..

the world doesnt revolve arnd u or me..
we are who we make ourselves to be..
either we do sth about our life or dont do anything at all..
the choice is in our hands..

-LENA-

1:09 PM
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Tuesday, July 7, 2009
my day!!


peiyi!!!
told cha today i'll find myself a bf!!
hahaha!!
orite!!
i even took pics with HIM ok!!
lots of it!!
bluek :P
urs is 06.06.09 rite??
mine is 07.07.09!!
so from now onwards, every month we can celebrate together!!
hahaha!!
k la enaf ah u sushi head..
go find ur sushi bf, santhoshi..
now let me reveal my bf's identity..

*jeng jeng jeng*

lena & peiyong!!! (lovebirds) :)

7:38 PM
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Monday, July 6, 2009
choices..bleah..


alright..
which sud i pick??
i have a feeling i will pick neither..
reason??
i don wanna delude myself..
why do i say tt??
cos i noe i don want to spend tt day with either of them..
not tt i dont like them tho..
but they're jus not who i wanna be with tt day..

thx for the offer but
i'd prefer spending time with my girlfrens etc..
:)

anyway to paiyoshi and santhoshi,
happy anniversary!!
u pair of sushi!! (btw i find tt pic above specially for u leh)
im so envious of u two can??
hahahas..

but nvm tmr is my day!!
urs is 06.06.09 and i told u tt mine will be on
07.07.09!!
hahaha!!
wait and see!!

4:15 PM
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Saturday, July 4, 2009
all in a day's work!!


phew..i did so much work today!!
extremely hardworking!!
hahaha
have been on my laptop for hours!!
(but of cos i facebook-ed and took breaks from time to time)
hehehe..
den text ppl ppl from time to time etc..
but still..good job lena!!

hmm anyway for gems, im the stage manager..
GOSH!!
tts a tough role but im sure i can do it..
i gotta believe in myself!!
darn but tt means i cant skip gems anymore!!
tsktsk..nvm..

anyway took some pics before wrapping up my work..

fain me and ermeen

hmm wat kind of smile is tt??

me and the winnie the pooh ezam(bro) gave me!!

zombiefied!!(i look so stupid la like as if im gonna die any minute)agree??

i love winnie the pooh!!

11:12 PM
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Thursday, July 2, 2009
must u use tt tone on me??


i didnt noe how hockey is played tts y i asked u..
if i knew i wouldnt have asked..
and i alrdy told u..
its for an assignment..
so must u take tt tone on me??
:'(

i was jus asking for help and u agreed to help..
if u didnt wanna help u cud jus say so..
well im sorry if i bothered u with my qns..
but thx for helping tho..
still..tt tone of voice was really unnecessary..
*sob*

7:50 PM
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lately..


alright currently having break but here i am in class
with peiyi,blogging away..
no appetite..
been having severe headaches lately..

and finally my eyelid stopped twitching but yst my headache
was like so tormenting!!
& i missed ABE AGM cos of tt..
sickening headache..

really felt llike i was gonna die wen i was otw home yst..
and lots of scenarios went thru my mind..
scared i might jus collapse and die b4 reaching home
and nobody will noe bout it..
hahaha..stupid thoughts..

anyway last night had a nightmare..
dreamt tt my sis-in-law kidnapped this small child
i exposed her & she wanted to kill me..
she looks so evil in the dream la..
woke up after tt and the first person i saw wen i went out of the room
was HER!!!
hahaha..stupid dream..

anyway as i was getting ready for sch tis morn,
my niece kept calling me..
she either calls me ana or nana..
so cute la she!!
and before i left, she said bubye..
hahaha!!damn cute!!!
my cute lil 2yr-old niece, avelyne

i wonder why she likes my bed so much..hehehe..


12:37 PM
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