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Sunday, February 27, 2011

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

ouh darn fuck..
fuck fuck fuck fuck!
can i just say that again??
FUCK!

what the hell??
now they are probably gonna perceive me as if
im this freaking cheap, promiscuous, bitch who doesnt have a proper upbringing..
argh!!
fuck fuck fuck..
should i cry? kill myself?
wtf?!
geez!! this is so stressful!!

argh!!!!!!!!
i just wanna scream!!

12:09 AM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

its so painful, im gonna die!!

hi..im in pain!!
excruciating pain..
im gonna die..
really gonna die if the pain doesnt go away..
:((

anyway im left with two papers before the end of my 3 academic years
in SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC..
ok anyway im not gonna rant further..
im in far too much pain to want to stay too long on the comp..
so toodles..

6:28 PM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Friday, February 18, 2011

Abandoned

hi..
im still awake..in the midst of studying now..
taking a short break..
will be sleeping late..

anyway i would say today or rather yesterday, wasnt a gd day..
couldnt study in the day cause chohari was home throughout..
there wasnt any space for me..
i know i could have gone out to study instead but nah..
i havent top up my ezlink and my money is in my locker,
which is blocked by tt love birds, sleeping!
so i spent the whole fucking day staring into space or letting the tv watch me stoning..

mum came home..
she prepared two dishes cos one of my bros dont eat one of the dish
so she had to whip up sth else for him..
WOW!
she doesnt do tt whenever she cooks chicken dishes
despite knowing i dont eat chicken..
did u know, past few days she cooked chicken dishes,
i didnt eat any meals except biscuits..
then one of the days i bought prata cause i was too hungry..

and on wednesday, she said she wanna cook sausages..
she said "lena u dont eat sausage rite? im cooking sausage"
but she didnt prepare anything else for me..
im expected to fry eggs myself or sth..
but i forced those sausages down my throat tho i know its gonna make me vomit..
why?? why do i get a different treatment??
has it ever crossed anyone's mind tt i developed this unhealthy habit
of not eating meals cos of.........forget it..

im losing it..
losing every desire to live in this pathetic life of mine..
where's my so called family??
do i even have one??
who can i count on in my family when im really at my lowest point in life??
WHO??!!
no one..i have no one..
so why should anyone of them bother to ask about my whereabouts if im not home??
just to show the impression tt "ive got a sister/daughter"
but deep inside,
does any of you bother about my well-being??

12:20 AM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Thursday, February 10, 2011

shut it!

why bother if you're not even gonna pay attention??
forget it la..
im bored of this..
need company??
talk to your new companion!!
hmph!!

11:34 PM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Saturday, February 5, 2011

A.W.E.S.O.M.E

hi!

went out with bbon yest..

we went to watch The Green Hornet in 3D!!

initially wanted to watch Khurafat at rex cinema but tickets sold out..

so yeah..

anyway it was a great movie..

after which we had dinner and headed home..

i swear i had a great time yest..

ouh and the day before, i had dinner with his family..

alright next few weeks im gonna be SUPER BUSY

with revision..

final phase..

so i gotta give my best like i always do..

though i have to admit, ive been slacking my butt off this term!!

gee gee..

ok wish me luck and TOODLES!!

(^_^)

2:08 PM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

just let it go again..

yeah yeah..
it doesnt matter even if i starve to death..
my stomach hurts like fuck, its just a norm to you..
when i had problems with my body,
its just a norm too..
nothing about me really concerns any of you here anyway..
not my health, not my life, not my existence..

to you, if i dont eat, i wont die..
but if the rest dont eat, they will die..
so you must show them more concern..
usually if there's only chicken, im expected to settle my own meal..
but if you cook dishes which the rest dont eat,
you help them whip up sth else..
i dont need any attention??

sigh..
ok..i just have to care for myself rite??
sometimes i think my bf and friends care more than my own family..
so what does this mean??
if ever ive got cancer or is dying, i dont need to tell any of you??
none of you care anyway..

its nothing but saddening you know..
and especially when any of them sick, you said "pitiful,etc"
but when im sick and said i wanna go see the doc,
you would just say "oh"
:(

ok whatever..
im not angry of upset..
im just disappointed..
ok bye..

7:12 PM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

wonderful day!!

laughing with this two the whole day :)

hi everyone..
i feel way way way better today..
today was such a super wonderful day..
i feel like all my troubles which ive bottled up all this while are gone..
probably cos i cried from sunday night all the way to last night..
the only time i didnt shed a tear was in school..

crying really helped in setting my troubles free..
tts what happens if i botle up too much..
breakdown..
but im glad its over now..
and today, i feel so damn happy!!
i laughed so much that i got tired eventually and started yawning repeatedly..
i even had appetite to eat..
in fact, i think i ate too much today..
now my tummy feels queasy..
gah!!

but oh well..
im glad im alright..
:)

11:53 PM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

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	Sunday, February 27, 2011 FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ouh darn fuck.. fuck fuck fuck fuck! can i just say that again?? FUCK! what the hell?? now they are probably gonna perceive me as if im this freaking cheap, promiscuous, bitch who doesnt have a proper upbringing.. argh!! fuck fuck fuck.. should i cry? kill myself? wtf?! geez!! this is so stressful!! argh!!!!!!!! i just wanna scream!! 12:09 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Tuesday, February 22, 2011 its so painful, im gonna die!! hi..im in pain!! excruciating pain.. im gonna die.. really gonna die if the pain doesnt go away.. :(( anyway im left with two papers before the end of my 3 academic years in SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC.. ok anyway im not gonna rant further.. im in far too much pain to want to stay too long on the comp.. so toodles.. 6:28 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Friday, February 18, 2011 Abandoned hi.. im still awake..in the midst of studying now.. taking a short break.. will be sleeping late.. anyway i would say today or rather yesterday, wasnt a gd day.. couldnt study in the day cause chohari was home throughout.. there wasnt any space for me.. i know i could have gone out to study instead but nah.. i havent top up my ezlink and my money is in my locker, which is blocked by tt love birds, sleeping! so i spent the whole fucking day staring into space or letting the tv watch me stoning.. mum came home.. she prepared two dishes cos one of my bros dont eat one of the dish so she had to whip up sth else for him.. WOW! she doesnt do tt whenever she cooks chicken dishes despite knowing i dont eat chicken.. did u know, past few days she cooked chicken dishes, i didnt eat any meals except biscuits.. then one of the days i bought prata cause i was too hungry.. and on wednesday, she said she wanna cook sausages.. she said "lena u dont eat sausage rite? im cooking sausage" but she didnt prepare anything else for me.. im expected to fry eggs myself or sth.. but i forced those sausages down my throat tho i know its gonna make me vomit.. why?? why do i get a different treatment?? has it ever crossed anyone's mind tt i developed this unhealthy habit of not eating meals cos of.........forget it.. im losing it.. losing every desire to live in this pathetic life of mine.. where's my so called family?? do i even have one?? who can i count on in my family when im really at my lowest point in life?? WHO??!! no one..i have no one.. so why should anyone of them bother to ask about my whereabouts if im not home?? just to show the impression tt "ive got a sister/daughter" but deep inside, does any of you bother about my well-being?? 12:20 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Thursday, February 10, 2011 shut it! why bother if you're not even gonna pay attention?? forget it la.. im bored of this.. need company?? talk to your new companion!! hmph!! 11:34 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Saturday, February 5, 2011 A.W.E.S.O.M.E hi! went out with bbon yest.. we went to watch The Green Hornet in 3D!! initially wanted to watch Khurafat at rex cinema but tickets sold out.. so yeah.. anyway it was a great movie.. after which we had dinner and headed home.. i swear i had a great time yest.. ouh and the day before, i had dinner with his family.. :) alright next few weeks im gonna be SUPER BUSY with revision.. final phase.. so i gotta give my best like i always do.. though i have to admit, ive been slacking my butt off this term!! gee gee.. ok wish me luck and TOODLES!! (^_^) 2:08 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Wednesday, February 2, 2011 just let it go again.. yeah yeah.. it doesnt matter even if i starve to death.. my stomach hurts like fuck, its just a norm to you.. when i had problems with my body, its just a norm too.. nothing about me really concerns any of you here anyway.. not my health, not my life, not my existence.. to you, if i dont eat, i wont die.. but if the rest dont eat, they will die.. so you must show them more concern.. usually if there's only chicken, im expected to settle my own meal.. but if you cook dishes which the rest dont eat, you help them whip up sth else.. i dont need any attention?? sigh.. ok..i just have to care for myself rite?? sometimes i think my bf and friends care more than my own family.. so what does this mean?? if ever ive got cancer or is dying, i dont need to tell any of you?? none of you care anyway.. its nothing but saddening you know.. and especially when any of them sick, you said "pitiful,etc" but when im sick and said i wanna go see the doc, you would just say "oh" :( ok whatever.. im not angry of upset.. im just disappointed.. ok bye.. 7:12 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Tuesday, February 1, 2011 wonderful day!! laughing with this two the whole day :) hi everyone.. i feel way way way better today.. today was such a super wonderful day.. i feel like all my troubles which ive bottled up all this while are gone.. probably cos i cried from sunday night all the way to last night.. the only time i didnt shed a tear was in school.. crying really helped in setting my troubles free.. tts what happens if i botle up too much.. breakdown.. but im glad its over now.. and today, i feel so damn happy!! i laughed so much that i got tired eventually and started yawning repeatedly.. i even had appetite to eat.. in fact, i think i ate too much today.. now my tummy feels queasy.. gah!! but oh well.. im glad im alright.. :) 11:53 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD	HER LeNa 15 July 1991 HAS OBESOPHOBIA loves Gummies LiNkS ♥ FAMILY ZaM ♥ WEIRDO!! 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