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Friday, July 30, 2010

TGIF :)

rin's mummy called me to go out with her today..
so i did despite being a little tired..
^_^
initially i didnt want to but thinking of wats been happening at home,
id rather not stay home..
and so we went to compass point..
hehehe..
walked arnd, chat etc etc..
then i sent her home..

wanted to leave immediately w/o entering cos i jus feel like gg home..
BUT i couldnt contain my pee any longer..
hahaha..
so yeah..
used the bathroom..
lol..
then rin's mummy and rin himself asked me to wait
so tt he can send me to the bus stop..

hmm..at one point of time,
rin's mummy addressed herself as mum while talking to me..
hehehehehe!!
idk whether im supposed to call her mum as well or auntie..
so i sticked to the latter..
LOL..
but honestly, i love her the way i love my mum..

but im growing fatter!!
argh!!

11:28 PM
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Thursday, July 29, 2010

do u know wat a blog is???

hello hello..
i just wanna make things clear to readers tt this is a blog..
MY blog..
a blog is like a diary except tt its public..
and a diary is a medium where anyone is free to express one's feelings..
if uve nvr heard of freedom of speech,
now im telling ya..
as long as no names are mentioned, even if its fucking obvious who im refering to,
only the person in particular will feel it..

so pls..
if any of u, readers are unhappy with any of my posts,
dont read my blog anymore..
leave me a hater comment for all i care..
but tt doesnt make u any better yeah..
but a suggestion would be,
create ur own blog and bitch about me..
then tt'll make u feel way better about urself or watever..

as long as my name is not mentioned,
and i dunno ur blog,
i wont be able to sue u for slander..
awesome??

tsktsk..
pls get some knowledge on blogging b4 any of u readers start creating a big fuss..
this is MY space..
create ur own space..
and if you haters are still reading my blog,
u sud stop cos ure just gonna go crazy for no reason..
tsk..kids these days..

10:19 PM
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meanie me

hey..
im trying to be mean..
i purposely made myself mean yst..
and it was freaking tiring..
i think i pissed her off..
but do i care??
nah!!
my house, my rules..and dont give problems to my younger bros get it??
cos if u do, im gonna make u hate not only me buut also my HOUSE..

but the funny part is,
today she tried to appease me with a piece of bread..
tsktsk..
are you like fucking serious??
a piece of pathetic bread??
nothing from u will ever appease me ok??
so quit trying to get into my gd books..
it aint gonna work..

anyway sch today was just ok..
short day..
so nothing much to expect..
my arm aches..
cos i played badminton with my bro yst..
tsktsk..

ok tts all for now..
working on sunday..
cant wait!!
^_^

4:36 PM
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

after a gd long sleep

gd morning!!
woohoo!!
i slept for 12 damn hours!!
awesome!!

hmm..
im sick of the song on my blog..
shall change it soon..
ouh chohari has been trying to talk to me..
but lets just say im mean and refused to give him a chance..
whatever..

ok u know what??
my stomach's making weird sounds..
i have no idea why..
tonight im gonna buy dinner for my younger siblings!!
am i a gd sister??!!
DUH!! of cos i am :P
hahaha

9:27 AM
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Monday, July 26, 2010

lunch sucks so do u..hahaha

wokey!
today seems like a gd day..
ouh and i ate lunch!!
awesome??
nah..hahaha..the spaghetti not nice :(
hahaha!!
doesnt matter...

ok..
anyway ive walked away..
in fact, WE have walked away..
so whatever it is, it doesnt concern me k??

ouh btw tt cute jogger turns out to be my brother's pal..
wahahaha!!
wat a small world..
ouh actually he's not tt cute la..
just pleasant looking :)

6:20 PM
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Saturday, July 24, 2010

tiring, sleepy night!

i just finished bathing baby!!
haha..
came back from basketball..
and i realised tt i haven ate my medicine..
i also havent ate my lunch or dinner..
so i had to stuff some food into my mouth followed by the stupid pill..
wat a hassle..

todays's basketball was so freaking hilarious..
lotsa funny shits happened..
no kidding..
wahahaha!!
of perhaps its cos i was too high today??

anyway..
i feel so freaking sleepy..
but i dont wanna sleep first..
hmm i smell soooo nice..
wahaha..
random..
ok.. think im gonna stop here now..

~i hate yellow, i hate this yellow jacket..stupid yellow jacket~

11:47 PM
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Friday, July 23, 2010

sleeeeeepy!!

first day of medication..

gosh idk if there's anything to do with the pill, but i sure feel sleepy..

fell asleep in the train jus now..

tts rare!!

either im way too tired or its the pill..

anyway..

i wanted to go jogging but yeah too sleepy to jog but till now,

im still awake..

gosh..

i need to exercise..hmm its alright..

im playing basketball tmr..tt'll do..

hmm..rin's mummy called me again..

hehehe..she's so cute..

really!! :)

no kidding!

okie now idk wat to do..

my choki choki chocolate is gone..

gave them to my niece and bro..

my gummy bears are gone too..

syakir and wilson still owe me lollipops..

sad sad sad :'(

alrighty..

i gotta eat soon though im not hungry cos i need to eat my medicine

after eating..

dammit!!

stupid pills..

(0.o)

6:31 PM
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Thursday, July 22, 2010

safe for now..

hey hey hey..
mir accompanied me to the polyclinic just now..
phew..
for now, im nowhere near the danger zone..
still safe..
nothing to worry about..
at least just for now..
:)

hmm..
okie im done with my food&beverages..
i shall read up for my MICE quiz tmr in a while..
and ive still got CR and RWS tutorial on hand..
hmm those can wait till tmr since they're not due so soon..
okie dokie..

so wats next??
lets see..
10-day medication starts tmr..
gotta start drinking warm instead of cold drinks..
basketball this saturday (hopefully)..
and..the list goes on..
but tts it for now..

~trying to love everyday like its my last day on earth~

8:49 PM
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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

am i well?? god pls look over me..

hey!!!

agness and mummy told me tt i should go see a doc bout tt issue im having..

oh god..

pls tell me im alright k..

pls make sure tt im fine yeah..

even if sth is wrong with me, im cool with it..

seriously gg to the doc is a waste of money -.-

tsktsk..

but oh well..

im sick of playing mind games with myself..

always trying to guess if my body's well..

ok i shall go to see a doc soon..

when??

haha..

idk..

now ive gt a headache but idk why..

sigh..

imagine one day im gone..

wooh scary thought..

hmm..

lets stop thinking bout it..

i need a rest..

ps: i want tt stupid fetish of mine to go away!!

8:40 PM
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

im a happy monster!!

okie i know these pics look retarded but i dont really care..

and for goodness sake!!

i hate those cheeks..fishball cheeks!!

anyway this morning rin's mummy called me..

long time since i heard from her..

hmm..

woah and rin seems so shagged out..

hope he recharges himself properly, seeing the way he's been overworking himself..

ouh..

i wish i know whats wrong with my body..

something just dont seem right..

hmm its alright..

im a monster!!

a HAPPY monster!!

~stickstickbone~

10:18 PM
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Monday, July 19, 2010

my sunshine after rain

wee!!
im happy!!
very happy!!
nvr felt better!! (ok this is a lie)
but yes im happy :)
and idk why..
hahahahaha!!

i just had dinner with my hubby(amirah) as well as my little bro..
GOSH IM FREAKING FULL!!
we ate at Uncle Tony..
and mir went crazy eating the chocolate lava dessert..
wahahaha!!
chocolates makes a girl high im telling ya!!

hmmm moving on..
lets see..
my thoughts for the day??
some ppl are soooo....nonsensical??
wahahahaha!!!
okie watever la..

*smiles*

10:10 PM
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Sunday, July 18, 2010

decision

hah!!
no time to think about vampire..
anyway i walked out the door first rite??
so why did i suggest tt ridiculous shit??
wahaha..
nonsense sia lena..
decided alrdy..
i dont want..i dont care..

ok..
tts it..
back to work..
ouch!!
coffee gives me headache..
fucking beverage!!

2:04 AM
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Saturday, July 17, 2010

im not a BFH and ure no jerk either..

i feel like a major BFH!!
i know tts wat u probably tink too..
but no..tt wasnt my intention..
i just wanted to talk about the issues..
not to hurt anyone..
cos i dont consider u a jerk..

disappearance,
no forms of contact,
trust, distrust,
silence, jealousy, hurt,
~~avoiding subjects~~

all these words..
which of these indicates ur feelings for me??
we both tried..
we did..we really did..

but this isnt as easy as erasing a piece of paper..

6:21 PM
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Friday, July 16, 2010

just goofing arnd as usual..

what else could we possibly do during excess break time except to goof arnd :)
hahaha..
anyway..some crap took place today..
was only slightly affected..
fret not..
im not gonna make some minor shit affect me..
just hide the stupid emotions awhile and then laugh it off..
and all will go well..
awesome rite??
:)

ok..tt apart,
im becoming MEAN!!
wahaha..nah just kidding..
im still the same lena i used to be yest, 1 week ago, 1 month ago blablabla..
crap..

ouh another thing..
i cant help nash out for his event tmr..
darn!!
and grr..i was supposed to be on standby for work tonight..
expecting it but looks like, there's still no news..
double darn!!!

last of all..
im not a fucking bitch who goes arnd flirting with guys and calling them dear etc..
tsk come on man..i tot u should have at least known tt by now..
cos if i were such a person,
i wud have gone for mr-i-dont-take-no-for-an-answer just cos
he's financially stable & is into me etc..
but did i??
NO!! HELL BLOODY NO!!
cos feelings matters more than material stuff and money u NFJ!!

geez..guys are just so dumb sometimes and i cant explain why..
tsk..humans..

8:13 PM
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Thursday, July 15, 2010

im NINETEEN!!

hello world!!
im NINETEEN!!
short day in sch today..
thought of asking my youngest bro, ermeen to watch Despicable Me together..
but he went out with my 3rd bro, ezam & his gf, rong & my niece..
so in the end, i went to meet them at orchard central instead
and lunched at BK..
stomach was still queasy then.. :(

zam bought a super cool watch for himself at OC..
then we went to 313 & rong bought a ring & top from F21..
after tt, we cabbed down to suntec..zam bought ermeen a remote car,
a hard disk as well as headphones for himself..
tiring day..and my head was spinning..
so we cabbed back home..

bought myslef 3 lollipops btw!! (like finally..)
was on my bed listenign to my mp3 when
my 2nd & 3rd bros together with their gfs and
my sis in law came into the room with my niece holding a CHOCOLATE CAKE!!
super SWEET!!!
bday song, blowing candles, cutting cake and EATING CAKE!!
yummy!! but i didnt finish my share..
left it in the fridge for tmr :)

thanks to my 1st bro and sis in law for the renoma wallet,
thanks to my 2nd & 3rd bros & thier gfs for the perfume,
thanks to mummy for the massage,
thanks to my youngest bro for the currypuffs and......
thanks to everyone for all ur wishes!!
i heart u all!!

~toinktoink~

9:24 PM
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

~lollipop love~

first and foremost,
siddiq and syakir owes me lollipops!!
lollipop lollipop lollipop!!

k enough lollipop talk..
its updates and story-telling time!!
weee!! *excited*
okie..first..two more days to turning 19..am i excited?? no!!
maybe i'll just stay home and suck my lollipop the whole day..
wahaha!!
fuck birthdays..i dont give a shit..

secondly..
mummy asked bout mr vampire..
and i told her wat i was told abt him..
she knew from the tone of my voice tt i didnt wanna continue the conversation..
one phrase:
a leopard nvr changes its spots

thridly..met mir jus now..
and we read some shits from zoinkzoink's page..
then i realised what a smart move ive taken so far..
ive gt nothing to lose and definitely no regrets honey..
im still the ultimate winner..
right from the start when i told doinkster tt im gonna play tt game,
i was determined to win!!
and right now,
i smell victory..
wahaha!!

11:41 PM
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Monday, July 12, 2010

mummy mummy thank u :)

for the first time ever,
i confided in my mum..
though she only consoled me for like less than 15 mins
since chohari is home,
it was gd enough for me..
and i am happy about tt..
:)
thank u mummy!

ok its time for me to put on a facade..
:)
woah my eyes hurt!!
fuck!!
anyway watever..
im off to do my assignments..

8:50 PM
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Sunday, July 11, 2010

LIFE!

okie been building a closer & stronger bond among my younger siblings & sis in law..
tts gd i suppose..
and been playing arnd with my niece alot :)
awesome!!

anyway yst's basketball was the worst ever..
i kept falling.. :(
hahaha..even while walking i fell..
cos of the stupid drain cover..
and all syakir and siddiq did was laugh when i trip over the drain while getting the ball..
ok fine i agree it was funny..

hmmm my weight is still maintaining..
its not increasing like how i want it to..
ok nvm..
right now im focussing on my curves..
ouh and siddiq actually said my boobs shrunk.. -_-"
who cares..
at least its still proportionate to my body size..

ouh ouh ouh..
my 3rd bro came back frm thailand yst..
he'll be staying for one week b4 leaving again..
ok cool..

hmm tts about it..
ive gt tons of work to do..
but i just havent found the motivation to start on them yet..
soon i suppose..
:P

2:05 PM
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Friday, July 9, 2010

bright sunny days ahead

does it matter??
now anymore..
surprisingly im not greatly affected..
tt proves tt not giving my all really helped ^_^
way to go..

after this havoc month,
im so gonna be...erm idk..
but i guess i'll devote my time to projects..
its piling into a mountain!!
GASP!!

lets wait for the beautiful sunshhine after rain..
:)

11:46 AM
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Thursday, July 8, 2010

just smile

smiling is the best thing to do..

5:01 PM
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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

life's like that..

im still staying strong..
i still am..
every night, tt dream keeps haunting me..
i cant stand it..
STOP!
just stop..

every morning when i wake up,
i just try to cast all those sorrows aside, hoping to have a great day in sch..
but this morning, i woke up feeling like the whole world is against me..
i felt vulnerable..
with stupid dreams haunting me every night and
my body giving me problems,
idk if they are supposed to be signs of smth..

besides that,
sch workload is definitely piling..
family bond is better when chohari is not arnd..
tts great but how much longer wud he stay away??
he'll be home sooner or later and tts gonna end the happy days at home..

during this period,
im trying my best..
my very best, in fact..
to stop thinking of....sigh..
forget it..
i feel fucked up..
goodbye..

10:27 AM
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Monday, July 5, 2010

demons controlling my mind..

HALT!!
i want all these thinking to stop..
pls..
im mentally tired ok..
stop pressing me for an answer..
i just dont know, alright??
enough alrdy..pls..

anyway as i was biting my pencil during lecture just now,
im reminded of sth..
i even felt as though i was experiencing it at tt moment..
sigh..
i dont wanna think anymore..
why does my mind keep thinking??
there're probably demons in my mind..
telling me to think every second of everyday..

ok tts nonsense..
alrighty..
the month of july always suck..
i dunno why..
i hate july..
sigh..guess tts it..
toodles..

5:27 PM
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Sunday, July 4, 2010

not everyone deserves my empathy

ok..
she is so arrogant..
why did i empathize with her in the first place??
gosh!!
she really dont deserve it..
hmph..

u are no better than how he was to you..
so get a life dudette..
geez..
i should stop empathizing strangers..
tsktsk..

11:19 AM
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Saturday, July 3, 2010

my saturday

today went to meet cousin..

then planned to play basketball with siddiq but it was still drizzling

and my bro havent got back from jamming by the time im home..

so had to cancel it..

hmm..

just now gt a text from mr bobby..

ok i seriously dunno wats happening..

im confused..

aww nvm..

anyway..

i wanna lose more weight..

i dont care..

haha..wait..maybe not..

but it doesnt harm to lose just 1 more kg rite??

hahaha..

crap..

9:01 PM
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Thursday, July 1, 2010

quit

Lena decides to quit believing in................

happiness

6:12 PM
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why am i down??

this was how i looked like yesterday..
i wasnt smiling most of the time..
i dunno why..
i have no idea whether i looked sad or mad..
bottom line is, i was just not in the best of mood yst..

i need a wish..

3:35 PM
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Boink Boink Love And Life Moves On...
	Friday, July 30, 2010 TGIF :) rin's mummy called me to go out with her today.. so i did despite being a little tired.. ^_^ initially i didnt want to but thinking of wats been happening at home, id rather not stay home.. and so we went to compass point.. hehehe.. walked arnd, chat etc etc.. then i sent her home.. wanted to leave immediately w/o entering cos i jus feel like gg home.. BUT i couldnt contain my pee any longer.. hahaha.. so yeah.. used the bathroom.. lol.. then rin's mummy and rin himself asked me to wait so tt he can send me to the bus stop.. hmm..at one point of time, rin's mummy addressed herself as mum while talking to me.. hehehehehe!! idk whether im supposed to call her mum as well or auntie.. so i sticked to the latter.. LOL.. but honestly, i love her the way i love my mum.. but im growing fatter!! argh!! 11:28 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Thursday, July 29, 2010 do u know wat a blog is??? hello hello.. i just wanna make things clear to readers tt this is a blog.. MY blog.. a blog is like a diary except tt its public.. and a diary is a medium where anyone is free to express one's feelings.. if uve nvr heard of freedom of speech, now im telling ya.. as long as no names are mentioned, even if its fucking obvious who im refering to, only the person in particular will feel it.. so pls.. if any of u, readers are unhappy with any of my posts, dont read my blog anymore.. leave me a hater comment for all i care.. but tt doesnt make u any better yeah.. but a suggestion would be, create ur own blog and bitch about me.. then tt'll make u feel way better about urself or watever.. as long as my name is not mentioned, and i dunno ur blog, i wont be able to sue u for slander.. awesome?? tsktsk.. pls get some knowledge on blogging b4 any of u readers start creating a big fuss.. this is MY space.. create ur own space.. and if you haters are still reading my blog, u sud stop cos ure just gonna go crazy for no reason.. tsk..kids these days.. 10:19 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD meanie me hey.. im trying to be mean.. i purposely made myself mean yst.. and it was freaking tiring.. i think i pissed her off.. but do i care?? nah!! my house, my rules..and dont give problems to my younger bros get it?? cos if u do, im gonna make u hate not only me buut also my HOUSE.. but the funny part is, today she tried to appease me with a piece of bread.. tsktsk.. are you like fucking serious?? a piece of pathetic bread?? nothing from u will ever appease me ok?? so quit trying to get into my gd books.. it aint gonna work.. anyway sch today was just ok.. short day.. so nothing much to expect.. my arm aches.. cos i played badminton with my bro yst.. tsktsk.. ok tts all for now.. working on sunday.. cant wait!! ^_^ 4:36 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Tuesday, July 27, 2010 after a gd long sleep gd morning!! woohoo!! i slept for 12 damn hours!! awesome!! hmm.. im sick of the song on my blog.. shall change it soon.. ouh chohari has been trying to talk to me.. but lets just say im mean and refused to give him a chance.. whatever.. ok u know what?? my stomach's making weird sounds.. i have no idea why.. tonight im gonna buy dinner for my younger siblings!! am i a gd sister??!! DUH!! of cos i am :P hahaha 9:27 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Monday, July 26, 2010 lunch sucks so do u..hahaha wokey! today seems like a gd day.. ouh and i ate lunch!! awesome?? nah..hahaha..the spaghetti not nice :( hahaha!! doesnt matter... ok.. anyway ive walked away.. in fact, WE have walked away.. so whatever it is, it doesnt concern me k?? ouh btw tt cute jogger turns out to be my brother's pal.. wahahaha!! wat a small world.. ouh actually he's not tt cute la.. just pleasant looking :) 6:20 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Saturday, July 24, 2010 tiring, sleepy night! i just finished bathing baby!! haha.. came back from basketball.. and i realised tt i haven ate my medicine.. i also havent ate my lunch or dinner.. so i had to stuff some food into my mouth followed by the stupid pill.. wat a hassle.. todays's basketball was so freaking hilarious.. lotsa funny shits happened.. no kidding.. wahahaha!! of perhaps its cos i was too high today?? anyway.. i feel so freaking sleepy.. but i dont wanna sleep first.. hmm i smell soooo nice.. wahaha.. random.. ok.. think im gonna stop here now.. ~i hate yellow, i hate this yellow jacket..stupid yellow jacket~ 11:47 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Friday, July 23, 2010 sleeeeeepy!! first day of medication.. gosh idk if there's anything to do with the pill, but i sure feel sleepy.. fell asleep in the train jus now.. tts rare!! either im way too tired or its the pill.. anyway.. i wanted to go jogging but yeah too sleepy to jog but till now, im still awake.. gosh.. i need to exercise..hmm its alright.. im playing basketball tmr..tt'll do.. hmm..rin's mummy called me again.. hehehe..she's so cute.. really!! :) no kidding! okie now idk wat to do.. my choki choki chocolate is gone.. gave them to my niece and bro.. my gummy bears are gone too.. syakir and wilson still owe me lollipops.. sad sad sad :'( alrighty.. i gotta eat soon though im not hungry cos i need to eat my medicine after eating.. dammit!! stupid pills.. (0.o) 6:31 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Thursday, July 22, 2010 safe for now.. hey hey hey.. mir accompanied me to the polyclinic just now.. phew.. for now, im nowhere near the danger zone.. still safe.. nothing to worry about.. at least just for now.. :) hmm.. okie im done with my food&beverages.. i shall read up for my MICE quiz tmr in a while.. and ive still got CR and RWS tutorial on hand.. hmm those can wait till tmr since they're not due so soon.. okie dokie.. so wats next?? lets see.. 10-day medication starts tmr.. gotta start drinking warm instead of cold drinks.. basketball this saturday (hopefully).. and..the list goes on.. but tts it for now.. ~trying to love everyday like its my last day on earth~ 8:49 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Wednesday, July 21, 2010 am i well?? god pls look over me.. hey!!! agness and mummy told me tt i should go see a doc bout tt issue im having.. oh god.. pls tell me im alright k.. pls make sure tt im fine yeah.. even if sth is wrong with me, im cool with it.. seriously gg to the doc is a waste of money -.- tsktsk.. but oh well.. im sick of playing mind games with myself.. always trying to guess if my body's well.. ok i shall go to see a doc soon.. when?? haha.. idk.. now ive gt a headache but idk why.. sigh.. imagine one day im gone.. wooh scary thought.. hmm.. lets stop thinking bout it.. i need a rest.. ps: i want tt stupid fetish of mine to go away!! 8:40 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Tuesday, July 20, 2010 im a happy monster!! okie i know these pics look retarded but i dont really care.. and for goodness sake!! i hate those cheeks..fishball cheeks!! anyway this morning rin's mummy called me.. :) long time since i heard from her.. hmm.. woah and rin seems so shagged out.. hope he recharges himself properly, seeing the way he's been overworking himself.. ouh.. i wish i know whats wrong with my body.. something just dont seem right.. hmm its alright.. im a monster!! a HAPPY monster!! :) ~stickstickbone~ 10:18 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Monday, July 19, 2010 my sunshine after rain wee!! im happy!! very happy!! nvr felt better!! (ok this is a lie) but yes im happy :) and idk why.. hahahahaha!! i just had dinner with my hubby(amirah) as well as my little bro.. GOSH IM FREAKING FULL!! we ate at Uncle Tony.. and mir went crazy eating the chocolate lava dessert.. wahahaha!! chocolates makes a girl high im telling ya!! hmmm moving on.. lets see.. my thoughts for the day?? some ppl are soooo....nonsensical?? wahahahaha!!! okie watever la.. smiles 10:10 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Sunday, July 18, 2010 decision hah!! no time to think about vampire.. anyway i walked out the door first rite?? so why did i suggest tt ridiculous shit?? wahaha.. nonsense sia lena.. decided alrdy.. i dont want..i dont care.. ok.. tts it.. back to work.. ouch!! coffee gives me headache.. fucking beverage!! 2:04 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Saturday, July 17, 2010 im not a BFH and ure no jerk either.. i feel like a major BFH!! i know tts wat u probably tink too.. but no..tt wasnt my intention.. i just wanted to talk about the issues.. not to hurt anyone.. cos i dont consider u a jerk.. disappearance, no forms of contact, trust, distrust, silence, jealousy, hurt, ~~avoiding subjects~~ all these words.. which of these indicates ur feelings for me?? we both tried.. we did..we really did.. but this isnt as easy as erasing a piece of paper.. 6:21 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Friday, July 16, 2010 just goofing arnd as usual.. what else could we possibly do during excess break time except to goof arnd :) hahaha.. anyway..some crap took place today.. was only slightly affected.. fret not.. im not gonna make some minor shit affect me.. just hide the stupid emotions awhile and then laugh it off.. and all will go well.. awesome rite?? :) ok..tt apart, im becoming MEAN!! wahaha..nah just kidding.. im still the same lena i used to be yest, 1 week ago, 1 month ago blablabla.. crap.. ouh another thing.. i cant help nash out for his event tmr.. darn!! and grr..i was supposed to be on standby for work tonight.. expecting it but looks like, there's still no news.. double darn!!! last of all.. im not a fucking bitch who goes arnd flirting with guys and calling them dear etc.. tsk come on man..i tot u should have at least known tt by now.. cos if i were such a person, i wud have gone for mr-i-dont-take-no-for-an-answer just cos he's financially stable & is into me etc.. but did i?? NO!! HELL BLOODY NO!! cos feelings matters more than material stuff and money u NFJ!! geez..guys are just so dumb sometimes and i cant explain why.. tsk..humans.. 8:13 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Thursday, July 15, 2010 im NINETEEN!! hello world!! im NINETEEN!! short day in sch today.. thought of asking my youngest bro, ermeen to watch Despicable Me together.. but he went out with my 3rd bro, ezam & his gf, rong & my niece.. so in the end, i went to meet them at orchard central instead and lunched at BK.. stomach was still queasy then.. :( zam bought a super cool watch for himself at OC.. then we went to 313 & rong bought a ring & top from F21.. after tt, we cabbed down to suntec..zam bought ermeen a remote car, a hard disk as well as headphones for himself.. tiring day..and my head was spinning.. so we cabbed back home.. bought myslef 3 lollipops btw!! (like finally..) was on my bed listenign to my mp3 when my 2nd & 3rd bros together with their gfs and my sis in law came into the room with my niece holding a CHOCOLATE CAKE!! super SWEET!!! bday song, blowing candles, cutting cake and EATING CAKE!! yummy!! but i didnt finish my share.. left it in the fridge for tmr :) thanks to my 1st bro and sis in law for the renoma wallet, thanks to my 2nd & 3rd bros & thier gfs for the perfume, thanks to mummy for the massage, thanks to my youngest bro for the currypuffs and...... thanks to everyone for all ur wishes!! i heart u all!! ~toinktoink~ 9:24 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Tuesday, July 13, 2010 ~lollipop love~ first and foremost, siddiq and syakir owes me lollipops!! lollipop lollipop lollipop!! k enough lollipop talk.. its updates and story-telling time!! weee!! excited okie..first..two more days to turning 19..am i excited?? no!! maybe i'll just stay home and suck my lollipop the whole day.. wahaha!! fuck birthdays..i dont give a shit.. secondly.. mummy asked bout mr vampire.. and i told her wat i was told abt him.. she knew from the tone of my voice tt i didnt wanna continue the conversation.. one phrase: a leopard nvr changes its spots thridly..met mir jus now.. and we read some shits from zoinkzoink's page.. then i realised what a smart move ive taken so far.. ive gt nothing to lose and definitely no regrets honey.. im still the ultimate winner.. right from the start when i told doinkster tt im gonna play tt game, i was determined to win!! and right now, i smell victory.. wahaha!! 11:41 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Monday, July 12, 2010 mummy mummy thank u :) for the first time ever, i confided in my mum.. though she only consoled me for like less than 15 mins since chohari is home, it was gd enough for me.. and i am happy about tt.. :) thank u mummy! ok its time for me to put on a facade.. :) woah my eyes hurt!! fuck!! anyway watever.. im off to do my assignments.. 8:50 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Sunday, July 11, 2010 LIFE! okie been building a closer & stronger bond among my younger siblings & sis in law.. tts gd i suppose.. and been playing arnd with my niece alot :) awesome!! anyway yst's basketball was the worst ever.. i kept falling.. :( hahaha..even while walking i fell.. cos of the stupid drain cover.. and all syakir and siddiq did was laugh when i trip over the drain while getting the ball.. ok fine i agree it was funny.. hmmm my weight is still maintaining.. its not increasing like how i want it to.. ok nvm.. right now im focussing on my curves.. ouh and siddiq actually said my boobs shrunk.. -_-" who cares.. at least its still proportionate to my body size.. ouh ouh ouh.. my 3rd bro came back frm thailand yst.. he'll be staying for one week b4 leaving again.. ok cool.. hmm tts about it.. ive gt tons of work to do.. but i just havent found the motivation to start on them yet.. soon i suppose.. :P 2:05 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Friday, July 9, 2010 bright sunny days ahead does it matter?? now anymore.. surprisingly im not greatly affected.. tt proves tt not giving my all really helped ^_^ way to go.. after this havoc month, im so gonna be...erm idk.. but i guess i'll devote my time to projects.. its piling into a mountain!! GASP!! lets wait for the beautiful sunshhine after rain.. :) 11:46 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Thursday, July 8, 2010 just smile smiling is the best thing to do.. 5:01 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Wednesday, July 7, 2010 life's like that.. im still staying strong.. i still am.. every night, tt dream keeps haunting me.. i cant stand it.. STOP! just stop.. every morning when i wake up, i just try to cast all those sorrows aside, hoping to have a great day in sch.. but this morning, i woke up feeling like the whole world is against me.. i felt vulnerable.. with stupid dreams haunting me every night and my body giving me problems, idk if they are supposed to be signs of smth.. besides that, sch workload is definitely piling.. family bond is better when chohari is not arnd.. tts great but how much longer wud he stay away?? he'll be home sooner or later and tts gonna end the happy days at home.. during this period, im trying my best.. my very best, in fact.. to stop thinking of....sigh.. forget it.. i feel fucked up.. goodbye.. 10:27 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Monday, July 5, 2010 demons controlling my mind.. HALT!! i want all these thinking to stop.. pls.. im mentally tired ok.. stop pressing me for an answer.. i just dont know, alright?? enough alrdy..pls.. anyway as i was biting my pencil during lecture just now, im reminded of sth.. i even felt as though i was experiencing it at tt moment.. sigh.. i dont wanna think anymore.. why does my mind keep thinking?? there're probably demons in my mind.. telling me to think every second of everyday.. ok tts nonsense.. alrighty.. the month of july always suck.. i dunno why.. i hate july.. sigh..guess tts it.. toodles.. 5:27 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Sunday, July 4, 2010 not everyone deserves my empathy ok.. she is so arrogant.. why did i empathize with her in the first place?? gosh!! she really dont deserve it.. hmph.. u are no better than how he was to you.. so get a life dudette.. geez.. i should stop empathizing strangers.. tsktsk.. 11:19 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Saturday, July 3, 2010 my saturday today went to meet cousin.. then planned to play basketball with siddiq but it was still drizzling and my bro havent got back from jamming by the time im home.. so had to cancel it.. hmm.. just now gt a text from mr bobby.. ok i seriously dunno wats happening.. im confused.. aww nvm.. anyway.. i wanna lose more weight.. i dont care.. haha..wait..maybe not.. but it doesnt harm to lose just 1 more kg rite?? hahaha.. crap.. 9:01 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD Thursday, July 1, 2010 quit Lena decides to quit believing in................ happiness 6:12 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD why am i down?? this was how i looked like yesterday.. i wasnt smiling most of the time.. i dunno why.. i have no idea whether i looked sad or mad.. bottom line is, i was just not in the best of mood yst.. i need a wish.. 3:35 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD	HER LeNa 15 July 1991 HAS OBESOPHOBIA loves Gummies LiNkS ♥ FAMILY ZaM ♥ WEIRDO!! 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