And Life Moves On...
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
mindless entry
woke up feeling a short, mild pain in my upper abdomen..
im worried and scared..
just what is wrong with me??
dont tell me to go for a check up cause money doesnt come from the sky..
anyway who cares..
not as if im gonna die rite??
even if i do, it wont be so soon..
moving on to the next issue..
i dont know why but i dont feel my usual self for the past 3 days..
its like i just......
i dont know how to say it..
but the point is, im just not myself..
i gotta stop deluding myself..
12:02 PM
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Saturday, December 25, 2010
ho ho ho!!
hey ho!!er..merry christmas??
hahaha!!
hmm yst went out with nisa :)
its been ages since we hang out with each other..
like 10 months since we last met!!
gosh!!
i bought myself a bottle of rock candy and mini skittles!!
woohoo!!
1:57 PM
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Thursday, December 23, 2010
bbon bbon bbon..
hello!bbon has got a job now :)
ok im happy for him..
wonder how he's doing now..hmm..
wait, am i missing him??
lol..
of cos i am!
xoxo
1:08 PM
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Monday, December 20, 2010
two months
happy two months bbon..though we didnt get to spend time together today,
it doesnt matter :)
im happy enough that you were with me yesterday..
so thank you for that..
i know im not perfect, and ive been
pretty mean and insensitive to your feelings sometimes..
but nevertheless, i love you and im sorry for any mistakes ive made..
i heart you ryan
("v")
'v'
6:20 PM
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Sunday, December 19, 2010
im better off dead
if you think my post is gonna be something funny,
no, it isnt..
how i wish those toy guns are real and that i can just pull the trigger..
sigh..
seriously,
maybe im better off dead..
im just so clueless right now..
sigh..
"dear mummy, have you ever been in my shoes??"
(i wanna ask my mum this but she's too busy to entertain me)
8:20 PM
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Saturday, December 18, 2010
randomness
i found this pic in my laptop :/so random..
didnt realise it was there till i went into my webcam folder..
hmm..
anyway there's too much on my mind currently..
so im not gonna say much here..
toodles..
7:53 PM
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Thursday, December 16, 2010
er..home's a crowd..
hello..yesterday was a bitch, today was slightly better..
spent the whole day doing stupid things instead of
working on my fyp website..
i will work on it, perhaps later at night..
anyway, ezam's back..
and very soon, another member will be in the family..
so lets do a head count shall we??
there will be:
chohari, mummy, hermie, fenddy, ezam, me, fa'in, ermeen, agness, avelyne and new baby girl ouh and sometimes mandy comes to sleep over
11-12 people in the house daily..
tell me how i can get peace when i need it??
ok, maybe i should go out more often from now on??
stay out late and so on??
gee i dont know..
thinking about this is giving me a headache..
5:58 PM
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Wednesday, December 15, 2010
just wow!
how is that even possible??
wow!!
seriously, tts my reaction..
WOW!!
forget it, i'll be fine tmr just like how i always feel fine after sleeping it off..
but right now, right this minute,
im being mentally abused/tortured/fucked/preyed on
by a phychopathic pedophile and i dont think anyone even cares..
not my grp, no one! (maybe you do but you're sound asleep)
i'll get out of this shit, MYSELF!!
so bye ppl!!
i hate today more than any other fucking days.
11:47 PM
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Tuesday, December 14, 2010
6 days away..
went to accompany bbon yest..hmmm..
alright so we're 6 days away from our two months..
it sure feels long..
time seems to be gg at a tortise's pace..
alright anyway,
from what ive seen on this particular acquaintance's wall posts on fb,
he/she doesnt really seem sincere in reaching out all this while..
gosh..
why complain if you're sincere??
and why help if you're not sincere??
human nature..
what can i say..
kinda pretentious and hypocritical..
im so glad, ive nvr asked you for help or advice..
9:23 PM
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Monday, December 13, 2010
am i fine? i think so
maybe you dont know what its like to live under torment,
under quarrels..
sure, there are others in worst state than me,
and i should be grateful..
i am..
i really am..
but now, just for now, all im asking for is....
ouh nvm..
it doesnt really matter..
i'll be fine tmr..
ok seriously, fine..
i am fine..i feel fine..nvr felt better..
bye..
1:36 AM
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Saturday, December 11, 2010
tests are over and holidays are here!
hello..tests are over and im back to update!!
alright so ive been busy with tests the whole week,
hardly having any time to miss bbon dearly..
and trust me, i feel bad about tt..
so...
last night i went over to his area to surprise him!!
yay!!
anyway, played pool with siddiq and fana after the test yesterday..
hell yeah it was a lot of fun..
my virgin game..
awesome!!
though i suck, but i had fun laughing at my own stupidity etc..
now, im waiting for siddiq to upload the video he recorded as well as some pics..
so yeah..
tts about it..
10:36 PM
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
what a wonderful day! -.-
what i planned couldnt happen..
oouh well..
went home, mummy moved my stuff without my consent..
argh..
then felt kinda hungry..
but guess what? there isnt any food..
wow!! of all days, everything had to happen today..
and to top it all,
manaf told me tt someone said tt im not beautiful..
ouh thanks..
i knew tt alrdy..
ive nvr even said i was beautiful in the first place..
ouh well..
i dont give a shit..
think whatever you want..
yes im ugly..
as ugly as a monster..
happy??
i hope ure damn good looking or beautiful to have commented on my appearance,
Allah's creation,
something tt i cant really change unless i go for plastic surgery..
1:08 PM
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Thursday, December 2, 2010
accompanying each other
hello world!!test week is coming..
so i probabaly wont be updating much..
anyway yst accompanied bbon for interview in the morning,
the interviewer could only make it in the afternoon
so bbon tag along to sch with me and sat through the lesson..
after sch,
we went back there for the interview..
ok hope good news follow after tt..
alright i missed two days of revision cos i was too tired..
so i got some catching up to do..
toodles..
ps: you look awesome in formal!!
11:23 AM
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