Boink Boink Love

Monday, January 31, 2011

i got kicked when im alrdy down. how can i get up?

arrows came shooting at me from all direction today..
in school,
there were problems with slides..
such a simple task..
two slides yet, there can still be mistakes..

home,
bros and mum quarrelled..
mum cried..
thats when i know, today is not the day for me to open up to her..
she needs her time alone..
she doesnt wanna talk to anyone..
:(
not even me..

at the same time,
im dealing with my own set of aches..
ive been tearing up..
since last night??
i cant help it..
my tears wont stop flowing..
i no longer know what exactly im feeling..
i wanna numb myself..
just try to put things aside..
even for a moment..
but its not working..

i feel like ive fallen..
fallen into a deep pit..
i just wanna stop everything..
ive became lost and confused..
idk what exactly is the core issue..

its 7pm..
pls stop torturing me..
pls..
i cant take it anymore..
i cant stop this vulnerable side of me..
i cant..
i just cant..
i dont know what to say or do..
maybe i just need some sleep..
sigh..

hope i'll be able to update again tmr, or the day after..
anytime, anyday..
idk..

6:48 PM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

Boink Boink Love And Life Moves On...
	Monday, January 31, 2011 i got kicked when im alrdy down. how can i get up? arrows came shooting at me from all direction today.. in school, there were problems with slides.. such a simple task.. two slides yet, there can still be mistakes.. home, bros and mum quarrelled.. mum cried.. thats when i know, today is not the day for me to open up to her.. she needs her time alone.. she doesnt wanna talk to anyone.. :( not even me.. at the same time, im dealing with my own set of aches.. ive been tearing up.. since last night?? i cant help it.. my tears wont stop flowing.. i no longer know what exactly im feeling.. i wanna numb myself.. just try to put things aside.. even for a moment.. but its not working.. i feel like ive fallen.. fallen into a deep pit.. i just wanna stop everything.. ive became lost and confused.. idk what exactly is the core issue.. its 7pm.. pls stop torturing me.. pls.. i cant take it anymore.. i cant stop this vulnerable side of me.. i cant.. i just cant.. i dont know what to say or do.. maybe i just need some sleep.. sigh.. hope i'll be able to update again tmr, or the day after.. anytime, anyday.. idk.. 6:48 PM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD	HER LeNa 15 July 1991 HAS OBESOPHOBIA loves Gummies LiNkS ♥ FAMILY ZaM ♥ WEIRDO!! NEXY?? ♥ DEPM02 DEPM 02 GhOsT(PeiYi) JaZrEeL JiEtInG RaeYi TiNgLeOnG ViViEn YuHua ♥ SP MATES ABE CLUB FaR HaZiQaH/aRi HeLmI iFFa NaD NaS NaShRuL NeSaAr nOrLiN ShErMaNn Zara ♥ EX-SKSS aIdEeL AMIRAWR Elly Tan FiRhAn HaFiZ JoLyN SnG KhAiRuL Zonkers Lair ♥ OTHER PALS HaFiZ SuKoR JaCk LiNa MaMaT RoNg RuDy SaLiZa sYaMiLaH MeMoRiEs May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 May 2011 November 2011 April 2012 LaLaLaLa Music Playlist at MixPod.com CrEdItS Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B