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Friday, February 18, 2011

Abandoned

hi..
im still awake..in the midst of studying now..
taking a short break..
will be sleeping late..

anyway i would say today or rather yesterday, wasnt a gd day..
couldnt study in the day cause chohari was home throughout..
there wasnt any space for me..
i know i could have gone out to study instead but nah..
i havent top up my ezlink and my money is in my locker,
which is blocked by tt love birds, sleeping!
so i spent the whole fucking day staring into space or letting the tv watch me stoning..

mum came home..
she prepared two dishes cos one of my bros dont eat one of the dish
so she had to whip up sth else for him..
WOW!
she doesnt do tt whenever she cooks chicken dishes
despite knowing i dont eat chicken..
did u know, past few days she cooked chicken dishes,
i didnt eat any meals except biscuits..
then one of the days i bought prata cause i was too hungry..

and on wednesday, she said she wanna cook sausages..
she said "lena u dont eat sausage rite? im cooking sausage"
but she didnt prepare anything else for me..
im expected to fry eggs myself or sth..
but i forced those sausages down my throat tho i know its gonna make me vomit..
why?? why do i get a different treatment??
has it ever crossed anyone's mind tt i developed this unhealthy habit
of not eating meals cos of.........forget it..

im losing it..
losing every desire to live in this pathetic life of mine..
where's my so called family??
do i even have one??
who can i count on in my family when im really at my lowest point in life??
WHO??!!
no one..i have no one..
so why should anyone of them bother to ask about my whereabouts if im not home??
just to show the impression tt "ive got a sister/daughter"
but deep inside,
does any of you bother about my well-being??

12:20 AM
UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD

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	Friday, February 18, 2011 Abandoned hi.. im still awake..in the midst of studying now.. taking a short break.. will be sleeping late.. anyway i would say today or rather yesterday, wasnt a gd day.. couldnt study in the day cause chohari was home throughout.. there wasnt any space for me.. i know i could have gone out to study instead but nah.. i havent top up my ezlink and my money is in my locker, which is blocked by tt love birds, sleeping! so i spent the whole fucking day staring into space or letting the tv watch me stoning.. mum came home.. she prepared two dishes cos one of my bros dont eat one of the dish so she had to whip up sth else for him.. WOW! she doesnt do tt whenever she cooks chicken dishes despite knowing i dont eat chicken.. did u know, past few days she cooked chicken dishes, i didnt eat any meals except biscuits.. then one of the days i bought prata cause i was too hungry.. and on wednesday, she said she wanna cook sausages.. she said "lena u dont eat sausage rite? im cooking sausage" but she didnt prepare anything else for me.. im expected to fry eggs myself or sth.. but i forced those sausages down my throat tho i know its gonna make me vomit.. why?? why do i get a different treatment?? has it ever crossed anyone's mind tt i developed this unhealthy habit of not eating meals cos of.........forget it.. im losing it.. losing every desire to live in this pathetic life of mine.. where's my so called family?? do i even have one?? who can i count on in my family when im really at my lowest point in life?? WHO??!! no one..i have no one.. so why should anyone of them bother to ask about my whereabouts if im not home?? just to show the impression tt "ive got a sister/daughter" but deep inside, does any of you bother about my well-being?? 12:20 AM UnDeRsToOdEdOoDeD	HER LeNa 15 July 1991 HAS OBESOPHOBIA loves Gummies LiNkS ♥ FAMILY ZaM ♥ WEIRDO!! NEXY?? ♥ DEPM02 DEPM 02 GhOsT(PeiYi) JaZrEeL JiEtInG RaeYi TiNgLeOnG ViViEn YuHua ♥ SP MATES ABE CLUB FaR HaZiQaH/aRi HeLmI iFFa NaD NaS NaShRuL NeSaAr nOrLiN ShErMaNn Zara ♥ EX-SKSS aIdEeL AMIRAWR Elly Tan FiRhAn HaFiZ JoLyN SnG KhAiRuL Zonkers Lair ♥ OTHER PALS HaFiZ SuKoR JaCk LiNa MaMaT RoNg RuDy SaLiZa sYaMiLaH MeMoRiEs May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 May 2011 November 2011 April 2012 LaLaLaLa Music Playlist at MixPod.com CrEdItS Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B